burning memories

burning memories

gaze into the fire
the flickering shapes you see –
can you imagine?
ah, they imagine themselves
these figures of you and me.


dimensions of love

dimensions of love –
side-by-side to sleep or wake,
we gaze at our skies;
like incandescent feathers,
your heart-shattering presence.

the memories we made ~flight from eternity~

“this doesn’t happen in real life…”
the words you whispered that night were heartbreaking
all I wanted was to make your dreams come true
but I couldn’t change the world for you

you smiled at me bitterly, eyes shimmering with tears
I was desperate to take your pain away
what kind of life must we live?
are we not allowed to be happy?

not knowing which one of us will go first,
I gaze intently into your eyes…
the memories we make,
the dreams we chase,
I can’t let myself forget them
no matter how far from eternity I fly

every second we now spend together
I grasp it tightly in my hands
“soon, this will all be over…”
with these thoughts running through my mind

the world is changing, and we change with it
but I can’t let these moments fade
the times you smile and laugh with me, the jokes we make and retell endlessly
I hold them to my chest, crying happily

not knowing which one of us will go first,
I gaze intently into your eyes…
the memories we make,
the dreams we chase,
I can’t let myself forget them
no matter how far from eternity I fly

can we believe in an impossible world?
I can’t live without it…
I take your hand, full of hope
And create new laughter with you again

playing games like the children we were
we move forward day by day
a rope, a pool, a closet hanger, a rainbow
still haunted, we gather ourselves and smile

not knowing which one of us will go first,
I gaze intently into your eyes…
the memories we make,
the dreams we chase,
I can’t let myself forget them
no matter how far from eternity I fly

Remember Me

Waiting for the autumn wind to blow the stars away,
I dream of you and only you,
Reaching out for the days we shared
And the tomorrows we left behind.

The goddess of time cannot care about us;
She sweeps me away to my death —
I can’t keep track, I’m losing it all
The words you said to me that day…

How could I be so cruel?
The promises I made to you,
I’ve left them far behind;
I can’t remember how I felt that time.

The current is too strong tonight,
Our love and care too distant to see —
Washed up on that glistening black and white beach
Where I once traced your name into the sand.

I took it for granted that you’d be here,
And even when I didn’t,
Our future of isolation was veiled to me;
I couldn’t appreciate what was in my own two hands.

I thought I wouldn’t live this long;
I thought I’d have you to my end;
But you made sure you went before me —
And now I don’t know anything.

The distance between us increases with time,
And she cares not about our past;
Please, I don’t want to forget you tonight —
But I’m only human in this life.

手紙

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Dear ◯◯、

If you are reading this, can you tell me?

If you’re alive, will you send me a sign?

Today is your birthday

Again, this year

I have passed many of your birthdays

Without you.

I will play music for you, today

Will you please listen?

From wherever you are

Whoever you are

I hope the sounds of the piano will reach you

And maybe the sound of my voice

Or yours

Are you still sick?

Are you happy?

You made me happy

When I was feeling depressed

And couldn’t name it

I wish you had someone

Who could make you happy too

All I can do now

Is play music

And remember you

How long has it been?

Every year I feel regret

Around this time

You have taught me

Not to make such regrets

Have I grown since then?

If you have returned to the stars

Or not

Do you still remember me?

It doesn’t matter so much

I’m still alive, after all

I just want you to be happy

At least today

On your birthday

Can you feel it?

Time is slowing down for you

So that you can smile again

Today

Someday.

From 〇〇

August 2019