spirit messenger

what words will you speak?
just as you walk out the door,
a crow stands waiting;
a spirit with a message,
which is not in words at all.

Entry #15 – Halloween Incident and the Meaning of Holidays

Hi everyone, Kohaku here! I hope you all had a great week.

I don’t really celebrate Halloween, but I hope those who do had a safe and fun time. Personally, I don’t understand the meaning of this holiday where people dress up and scare each other and give kids candy. But, that’s just me. Did you all enjoy it? That’s the most important thing, right?

I wanted to talk about something that happened on Halloween. One of my close friends and her father were giving out candy to trick-or-treaters that night. Their family is kind of struggling financially, but they wanted to celebrate this holiday and participate in the neighborhood, so they went out of their way to buy some candy for this occasion. At some point during the night, a car of perhaps high-school-age kids drove by, and the kids got out and knocked on my friend’s door. They weren’t dressed up, but they were trick-or-treating. My friend’s dad generously invited them to each take a handful of candy. But as they were doing so, one of the kids snatched the entire bowl out of his hands, and the whole group fled back into their car and drove away.

I’m not entirely sure what I want to say about this, but most of all I just want to tell this story and get you all to think about it. Does this incident mean anything? Does it have any relation to the nature of this holiday, or the societies in which we live? Does it say anything about the world? Or is it just an isolated incident of a group of candy-craving kids who didn’t think about what they were doing? Feel free to let me know what you think.

Well, anyway. I guess I don’t believe in Halloween all that much.

What holidays do you all celebrate? Are there any specific to your society or culture that you want to share? Holidays mean different things to different people, and that’s completely okay. I want to hear what the holidays you celebrate mean to you.

This week, give holidays some thought. We could all benefit from doing a little more thinking – don’t you think?

Take care of yourselves,


dissolving beautifully

dissolving beautifully

unable to move
I gazed into your eyes, just
watching petals fall;
from your dissolving figure
they spread out beautifully.

I’ll See You Again

I’ll see you again…

the world spins and spins and spins
watching the turnover of seasons,
I can’t read the flow of time
but you knew I never could
and now

to sprout and bloom and die,
maybe this too is our life
I watched you change colors like the leaves
before you fell into the white snow
so it’s not too far off, is it?

sinking to the earth,
you gave me new life
and then returned to the stars above
you always belonged there, you know
maybe I’ll follow you someday

watching over a flower as it slowly dies,
this kind of feeling is so painful
would I do it again given the chance?
I still don’t know the answer
but there was never a point in that

heat flows in through the autumn winds
pulled along by the season’s change, I think
let’s play a game of catch today
this tragic yet beautiful world you passed on to me,
I’ll throw it back at you again!

wherever you are
whoever you are
get ready to catch it,
‘cause I’ll find you
I’ll see you again!

Horizon Lines

Horizon Lines

gray horizon lines
marking off our months and years –
who could ever see?
dreaming styled fantasy
of those on the other side.

A Single Star-Filled Sky

As the darkness sets in I gaze up at the sky,
Wishing I had the ability to fly –
But I don’t even know where it is that you are,
So where would I head, for how long and how far?
The light is fading, and without you I’m stuck here,
But strangely tonight this produces no fear;
Just counting the bombs like I would count passing cars,
Knowing that you and I are now seeing the same stars.

On the other side of the horizon line,
You live in a world that’s no better than mine,
Full of clumsy creatures who act without thinking,
Who commit acts of destruction without even blinking.
They say that two minuses are supposed to make a plus,
So should we let two countries war without making a fuss?
I love you all, but it’s beyond my control –
Humanity is determined to rip apart my soul.

Dozens of years have come and gone,
And here we are at the edge of dawn,
Repeating ourselves like a song on replay,
Crawling desperately toward the end of the day.
The ground cracks open beneath my feet,
You wrap your child in a bloodstained sheet,
They whisper “I’m sorry” and pretend to care,
While celebrating nothing but death and despair.

Gazing at the same sea of stars, you and I,
We wonder how quickly our time will fly,
Praying we’ll live long enough to see
A world where love will be finally set free.
But tonight I understand that it’s only a dream –
One we can’t reach, one still too extreme.
I hoped we would meet in the future some day –
But tonight I am dying, so alone we will stay.

Entry #14 – Loneliness

Hi everyone, Kohaku here. I hope you all had a great week!

A couple of weeks ago, when talking about 「HIRAETH」, I briefly discussed the topic of homesickness. Today, on a slightly related topic, I want to talk about the feeling of loneliness.

It’s easy to feel lonely. As is said, we’re social animals, and when our social circles are taken away from us (or if they are nonexistent in the first place), we hurt. For some, it’s especially painful, and there are also some people who just feel lonesome very easily. As we go through life, it’s important to actively seek out and maintain a social network that is open-hearted, loving, and genuine so that we can avoid feelings of loneliness.

Often when I’m out with my friends or family, I’m suddenly struck with appreciation for this community that surrounds me. At the beach watching the sunset with loved ones by my side – are these not the moments that make life worth living? Of course, the problem is when some people are for whatever reason denied such moments. But others actively choose to avoid them. There is value there, too. In the end, I think it takes a special kind of strength to live life alone.

Homesickness, loneliness, sadness, and depression – all of these feelings are connected. And in the reverse, they are also connected to feelings of having a home, having community, being happy, and being content. These connections and complexities are what I’ve been exploring recently in my writing. I’ll be moving forward with these themes in mind.

This week, value the community that surrounds you. Call your friends and family, go out together, and have a good and meaningful time. If you don’t have a social group and you’re feeling lonesome, take some risks and try to create one. And if you know someone who has been denied a community, reach out to them yourself. You could save a life – really.

Take care,